showmeit

I will always love her. She is the light that guides me home

For what I have done, and what I have failed to do, I am sorry

Its 4am and I cant sleep, I have to be up in a few hours to go to a meeting in the city.
I dont know what is going on, there are so many things running through my mind.
Fuck. I just wish she was here with me

I dont even know what im angry at anymore

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

—Bob Marley (via kushandwizdom)

without her

There has been long days, and even longer nights

Heyyy I know her

Heyyy I know her

Three and a half years to the day, our first date. I still remember it like it was yesterday. What she was wearing, how she wore her hair, her smile. Everything. 
I never thought anyone would come into my life and change the way i look at the world, but she did, she’s made me a better person, and for that, i will always love her.
We’ve had our ups and downs, more than id like to remember, but there is nothing i wouldn’t do for her. Loving her means the world to me. 
She’s on the other side of the world, but she’s never far from my thoughts. Wherever she is, i am sending my love to her. 
Three and a half years down, another 50 to go. 
Nicole if you see this, just know i miss you so much it hurts my whole body, 
Love, Always
The peanut to your jelly.

Three and a half years to the day, our first date. I still remember it like it was yesterday. What she was wearing, how she wore her hair, her smile. Everything. 

I never thought anyone would come into my life and change the way i look at the world, but she did, she’s made me a better person, and for that, i will always love her.

We’ve had our ups and downs, more than id like to remember, but there is nothing i wouldn’t do for her. Loving her means the world to me. 

She’s on the other side of the world, but she’s never far from my thoughts. Wherever she is, i am sending my love to her. 

Three and a half years down, another 50 to go. 

Nicole if you see this, just know i miss you so much it hurts my whole body, 

Love, Always

The peanut to your jelly.