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To the ones we have loved, and the ones that we have lost

She's the light that guides me home.

For what I have done, and what I have failed to do, I am sorry

Growing up I thought being in love was red roses, dates on Saturday nights, pretty jewelry, Friday night movie premiers, kisses in the rain, and boxes that held expensive things. I thought true love was a story with a picture perfect ending. Now that I’m older I’ve realized it’s not that at all. True love isn’t something you find in a Disney movie. Being in love is screaming at 5 AM till you cry out of anger, but knowing they won’t leave. It’s saving each other’s selfies, good or bad, just to look at them because you miss each other. It’s being comfortable enough to talk about anything. It’s saying all the wrong things at the wrong moments. It’s leaving someone in complete control of your heart, but trusting them not to break you. It’s screaming the lyrics to your favorite songs together. It’s honesty even when it hurts and sarcasm when they’re sad. It’s lame jokes and sleepless nights. It’s fights and make up sex. It’s hour long showers and breakfast in the morning. It’s all night phone calls instead of texting. It’s the small things. It’s coffee shop dates and finding new books to read. It’s holding hands and kissing ever so passionately. It’s being able to sit at home just basking in the presence of someone you love with every fiber of your being. It’s wanting to share every moment with that one person. It’s finding yourself awake at 3 AM craving them asleep next to you. It’s little nick names and making fun of each other. It’s being called things like ‘little shit’ or ‘baby’ or ‘love of my life.’ It’s being able to fall asleep knowing that person will still be there in the morning. It’s being apart and knowing nothing will change. It’s deep talks at 6 AM. It’s days full of laughter and tears. It’s capturing the world’s beauty though their eyes. It’s not about the sex or the gifts, it’s about finding someone who pours their love into your deepest cracks making you whole once again. It’s feeling part of you missing when you’re apart. It’s finally being able to love yourself even half as much as that person loves you. Love is the only thing left in the world worth fighting for. Don’t you dare settle for a boy who makes you feel good for a night, or a girl who boosts your ego at a party. Mindfucking love is the holy grail of all love. Being in love will fuck you up in more ways than you can imagine and it’s absolutely fucking heart-wrenching, but at the same time it’s the most beautiful thing in the world.

—“3AM Thoughts" series #4 (via unpoeticheartbreak)

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Right now.

Yes, I am a crazy. And yes, I know im not perfect.
Yes, I know Nicole and I have had some great times, amazing times, beautiful moments together, and yes, I know we have been thru hell and back, stared into each others eyes as our heart has broken, feeling betrayed, hurt, and angry.
Yes, I know that the world is against me, that everyone and everything says I dont deserve her, that we are stupid kids with stupid ideas, and even stupider dreams.

But no, you dont know her like I do, youvr never seen the way she smiles, the way her hand fits perfectly in mine, and that her lips were made for kissing me.
No, you dont know what we have been through, what we have done, or the moments we have shared. You weren’t there for all those late night talks, and early morning drives to the ocean.
No, you werent there when she told me she loved me, said that she cared for me, and trusted me with everything, her fears, her dreams. You weren’t there when she opened up her world to me.

So right now Im lost. and I dont know where to go. I feel like im living half a life
Im confused, angry, upset, just fucking fuck. I can’t put how I feel into words. The same way how I dont give a shit about what anybody thinks, whether they think im right or wrong, whether I should give up or keep going. All I care about is what she thinks, all I care about is her. She really is the light that guides me home

Fuck. I miss her. This sucks.

Nicole if you see this, just know that im sorry, and although im upset at the way things have turned out, I still want this more than everything and that I love you more than the world.

SAMSARA food sequence

I just watched this video on Vimeo. Way of looking at food production and consumption.

I am not sure i want to eat meat anymore

Just so I know im not going crazy, im going to take a photo of everything that reminds me if Nicole. Good or Bad

No.1 - In my lecture at uni

Just so I know im not going crazy, im going to take a photo of everything that reminds me if Nicole. Good or Bad

No.1 - In my lecture at uni

The thing is

Nobody knows her like I do.

The little things that make her, her.

And at the same time, nobody knows me like she does.

So when they tell me that its over, to move on, that she doesn’t love me..

I get angry, I get upset. I feel all these emotions at once, and it sometimes gets too much

I know I’m not perfect, and she isnt either, but shes perfect for me. And im going to keep fighting for her, because this is what I want. To be there with her, and for her. There is no one else, for me anyway. The heart wants what it wants.

samsangel:

Hello fellow nerds!

A new school year is approaching, and since I have to nail my A* this year I put together a masterpost with helpful links and tips that I have gathered throughout my school years. Good luck this year: you´ll do just fine!

1. Learn ´em languages

Learn terms and glossary in Quizlet.
Learn a language for free on Duolingo.
Learn a language for free on Busuu.
Oxford Dictionaries.
Games and fun activities for English learners.
Irregular English verbs.

2. Do your research


Google scholar.
Scholarpedia.
You can learn anything (KhanAcademy).
Didn´t listen in class? (Crash Course).
Simple Wikipedia.
Learn littérature without having to read it (SparkNotes).
Wolfram Aplha.
TED.
Open 2 study. (Online studying) 
Free college courses.

3. Learn how to write like a God

10 practical tips for writing better exam essays.
Writing an essay.
Harvard writing resources.
Writing application essays.
Writing a personal statement.
Genre characteristics.
Writing a literary analysis essay.
Answering essay questions.
Get feedback.
Bibliography maker.
What is the word you´re looking for?

4. Oh yes sweet reading

8 tips to remember what you read.
How to read Shakespeare.
Effective reading and note-taking.
How to take notes while reading.
Note taking tips.
170 free textbooks.
1000 free textbooks.

5. Get your studying and organization game on


Time Management
Get your school life in order with organization.
Reach your goals.
Goals worksheet.
Finding information on the internet.
Using sources.
Get a hold on mind mapping.
How do you learn best?
Sound without music (Such as cafes).
Make flashcards.

6. Stress and anxiety management because school is stressful



Coping strategies.
Stress reduction tips.
Stress relief for students.
Managing test anxiety.
Dealing with test anxiety.
Self help: Keeping calm.
Introverts in college.
Coping and calming down. N.1
Coping and calming down. N.2
Do nothing for two minutes. 

7. Go get ´em tests


Study skills for test taking.
Study tips for finals.
Multiple choice exams guide.
The seven days study plan.
15 steps to success.
How to prepare for a test.
Checklist for essay tests.


8. Classroom participation - because teachers love that shit


Active listening.
Classroom discussions.
Presenting projects in the classroom.
Preparation before class.
Participating tips.


9. Software and pages for us nerdy kids

Openoffice and Libreoffice.
Dropnote.
Google docs.
EverNote.
Prezi (Fore presentations.)
Calculator.
Grade calculator.
Grammar check.
Staying focused for Mac, Chrome and Firefox.
Plagiarism check.
Best apps for students masterpost.
Homework help.

10. Yo! Take some time to care ´bout yo´self

100 000 stars.
Workout masterpost.
Movie masterpost of masterposts.
Self-help masterpost.
8Tracks.
Learn and do yoga.
Voulenteer. 
Learn to play guitar.
The thoughts room.
Disney games because hell yeah.




























Just cos I have a tonne of uni work to do

samsangel:

Hello fellow nerds!

A new school year is approaching, and since I have to nail my A* this year I put together a masterpost with helpful links and tips that I have gathered throughout my school years. Good luck this year: you´ll do just fine!

1. Learn ´em languages
2. Do your research
3. Learn how to write like a God
4. Oh yes sweet reading
5. Get your studying and organization game on
6. Stress and anxiety management because school is stressful
7. Go get ´em tests
8. Classroom participation - because teachers love that shit
9. Software and pages for us nerdy kids
10. Yo! Take some time to care ´bout yo´self
Just cos I have a tonne of uni work to do

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